4:20 in the morning as I write this and I’m obviously going through some kind of lag that has to do with jet setting. It kind of sucks cause I usually wake up for work in about 3 hours or so, so yeah it fucking blows.
On the  up hand I’m all caught up with Dexter. That last episode was a jaw dropper. Trinity Killer obviously had something to do with Lundy’s shooting cause he “stole” his wallet and watch while Deb. still had her bag on her. John Lithgow is the Trinity Killer and I can’t seem to disassociate his character from 3rd Rock from the Sun. To me he’ll always be the Dick Soloman, the High Commander for that group of aliens… kinda how Joseph Gordon Levitt is Dick’s son but in actuality is older than him but for the sake of blending in as earthlings is stuck in a teenagers body.. oh blehhhh why does this even matter. What I really should be concentrating on is sleep and getting my sleep pattern right if I want some sanity in my life right now.

I sometimes feel I get asked more about my “life savings” than about when I’m going to get married (a shocker coming from an Asian family). I think it would make more sense to talk about my savings after getting married and/or having kids because then you’ve invested in other people outside yourself (ie husband/wife/kids etc…). Right now I’m free as a bird. I don’t have to look out for anybody except for myself. Yes, I do think it’s a good idea to have money for a rainy day but that whole “5 year plan” savings scheme seems a bit out of whacked for me right now. As much as I hate saying this all-time classic cliche – yes you could drop dead any day regardless of how healthy you are. Live a little, spend money, go places and do  potentially regretful* things (*with slight caution )

Well in a few days I’m on my way back to the US / UK  for a visit.  It’s been labeled the uSUK Tour 2009 though I hope not aptly named. I’m nervous, excited, anxious and @#%!&@#$%()*@. Being the total control freak I am I’ve pretty much structured my whole trip. Aside from just enjoying the company, I’ll be:

• Sleeping at Heathrow Airport
• Going to Kings Dominion
• Wavves @ the Ottobar
• Driving all over Scotland
• Spending my 29th birthday in Glasgow and London

I just got a pair of decent walking shoes and yes they are *GASP* Crocs (http://www.crocs.com.my/footwear_detail.php?mainID=54 – in dark blue) I think I could have waited to get a pair of http://www.crocs.com.my/footwear_detail.php?mainID=36 in black instead but it was combo of wine and an impatient Ben that resulted in my rushed purchase. They are comfy as hell and light as shit (though hell isn’t comfy and shit isn’t light).

So aside from the obvious packing itself, I still need to sort out my holiday playlist. I’m a little behind on the times and only have a 2GB memory card to store my music on my phone. I must be very selective! But I forsee a lot of Jesus & Mary Chain, Wavves, Lovvers, the Horrors and uhm Ministry – that is if I stick to my Last.FM listening trend.

Dear Self,

Stop pining for something that never was and work on something that could be.

Here’s my HORRORsCOPE (yes intentionally spelt that way) for today, Friday September 18, 2009:

Having struggled to keep certain plans you’ve worked hard to organize afloat, you’re begining to admit it’s not worth the effort. As much of a defeat as this seems, you’ll soon realise there’s a wide world of new ideas to explore, some of which you’ll happily discover would be far more rewarding.

… O RLY?

I think I’ve sorta worked out a budget for my United Kingdom or America tour, Sept-Oct 2009 tour. I need to settle some bills first so I don’t have to deal with that craziness when I come back. I also need to buy gifts..yes gifts..and pack to make sure I don’t over pack. ARgh – pre holiday anxiety. BTW – I hate it when people say “VACAY” (short for vacation in case you aren’t familiar with the term).

I’ve heard of pre-holiday stress and post holiday blues but pre-holiday blues? Have you ever looked forward to something so much that the fun is actually the “looking forward to” part. Then it happens and then it’s over. Yeah it’s kinda like that. Also have you ever looked forward to something you can smell and are so excited to eat only to realize it’s a smell coming from somewhere else and you were mislead the whole time. Yeah it’s kinda like that too. I’m not feeling very festive either. I think that’s just me every year around this time. Also, I’m inching closer to the THREE UH OH and it kinda sucks to be honest.

Okay that didn’t really rhyme, what gives random surfers?

Recently I’ve been finding myself really digging music that could only properly fit into the category “English Psychadelia“. Am in the midst of finding out more.

In the meantime I have the following for my weekend music catch up:

• The Horrors - Strange House (Primary Colours is the first album I’ve listened to them and in full and I loved it. This one is technically their first full length.)
• The Birthday Party - Prayers on Fire/John Peel Session (Where have I been all these years to have not listened to them proper!?! Goes to show there’s just toooooooooo much out there to get grubby ears all nice lubed for)
• A Place to Bury Strangers – A Place to Bury Strangers (I thank Last.FM and my paid subscription for this and their “You might like this” recommendation based on my Jesus and Mary Chain listening trend)
• Fire Engines - Big Gold Dream 7″ & Fond (Josef K. related)
• The Stevenson Ranch Davidians